22nd Sept 2009, Adelaide

I remember back in college when we used to study together, I expected someone to read all the things and teach to me and this became my habit, I never really cared to study on myself and expected maggu and phantom to teach me the things when we had common courses during first and the second year. I joined phantom when he used to solve assignments and never looked at them on my own. In my third year when the departmental courses started, then I found a good helping hand of jp, and the responsibilities of phantom and maggu was now transferred to jp. I relied on him to read everything and teach it to me like I did with the other two guys and this continued till the last course my bachelors. We used to take same courses and he used to teach me the things, I think jp liked to teach someone after reading the things so he also preferred this arrangement, in a way he was getting better after teaching me so that helped him to memorise the things more confidently. I have to say he is very good at mugging up the course handouts and I was a bit frustrated with him because I was not able to mug up the things so well and sometimes I used to get irritated with him, but nevertheless he was helpful to me and helped me to score better marks in the departmental courses, so I kind of have this debt to him for supporting me during those days.

In my first year I was really pissed off because of my department, I cursed myself for being in this department and had no interest in studying the courses, I thought that I will get a job after 4 years and I don’t have to study that much. I remember papa used to ask me about “what do you want to achieve in life and how do you see yourself after 4 years” whenever i went home during the holidays, and I used to tell him that I want a job and a good family life that’s all. Now I realize that only getting a job is not important for anyone, the work the person do on the job and how much he loves the job is important.

But why I am writing this thing, what is the motive or the main concern on which this write up is based, frankly speaking I really don’t know why I have started to write these things, but one thing is for sure I am feeling a bit relieved after writing these things, I think penning down the thoughts make the understanding and realization more easier.